My guess (armchair psychology and know nothing about you) is that someone made your inner child feel sad and "not good enough". If you can find that kid in you and feel/sooth the pain it will free you from trying so hard to reach an elusive goal. Then you can figure out what you actually want and persue that.
No, I'm not projecting I've seen this before. My own inner pain and outward manifestation was different ;-)
My guess (armchair psychology and know nothing about you) is that someone made your inner child feel sad and "not good enough". If you can find that kid in you and feel/sooth the pain it will free you from trying so hard to reach an elusive goal. Then you can figure out what you actually want and persue that.
No, I'm not projecting I've seen this before. My own inner pain and outward manifestation was different ;-)