Is it possible the pressure, or some % of it, is self-induced? How much?
It sounds like you already established yourself with a good reputation there since they hired you from an internship. Maybe the culture there is always giving all to the company? Based on observations, one option is to make the perception of 110% but fluctuate the performance so you are not stressed. When you are stressed your work will show it.
Yeah there's part of me that feels "I want to prove I can do this on time / accountable". And that partly is reinforced when I get comments like "Oh okay good progress! But keep watch of the deadline, seems like we are a bit behind." (no sarcasm intended by the commenter). Maybe I can simplify it by saying like "there's little empathy" (?). The turnover rate is already quite high and I doubt they will worry too much about me (of course it's still not easy to find good hire but probably they are used to losing one).
Anyway thanks so much for your reply! I feel much better now and by other replies too. :)
It sounds like you already established yourself with a good reputation there since they hired you from an internship. Maybe the culture there is always giving all to the company? Based on observations, one option is to make the perception of 110% but fluctuate the performance so you are not stressed. When you are stressed your work will show it.